I Was Numbing Myself Too.
Yes. I know what that looks like.
I was blaming everyone else — except myself.
I scrolled. I numbed. I distracted.
But nothing changed — until I did.
Until I started taking even the smallest actions.
That’s when I got clarity.
That’s when alignment showed up.
And yes, some will still say:
“Not everyone can do what you did.”
But here’s the truth:
Everyone can.
Most just won’t.
Because change is uncomfortable.
Feeling is uncomfortable.
Healing is uncomfortable.
Closing karmic loops is uncomfortable.
Taking action is uncomfortable.
So if you think you are stuck— you are not.
You are comfortable.
So sit with that.
This is not judgment.
This is not cruelty.
This is truth.
And this map? It’s yours now.
Do what you want with it.
But don’t say no one told you.
The Shift Begins With Refusal
The exit point always begins when you say and feel:
❝ I don't accept this reality anymore. ❞
❝ This version of life is over. ❞
That’s the energetic signature. The first rupture.
Not the email you send. Not the job application. Not the “vision board.”
The pure refusal. It has to vibrate in your bones.
Aknowledge your patterns.
See how much time you spend on scrolling.
On brainwashing TV shows.
How much you spend on food and drinks that actually poison you.
That acknowledgment? No, it’s not easy. It stings.
And that’s where it begins.
Nobody is here to judge you.
It’s just you and your feelings.
See the pattern.
Refuse it.
Fully.
What do you want to change?
Even if it feels impossible for now?
Just that— shifts your reality.
Take small steps.
Small.
You don’t have to drop it all.
Instead of searching another TV show—go for a walk.
Sit in silence.
Or with music.
Or bake.
Write.
We say we don’t have time and yet the screens steal it from us.
And let’s be real here.
All of it — social media, shows, junk food— this is addiction.
And it’s by design.
To keep you in that bubble— so you don’t escape it.
So you sit in comfort of your screen and keep that.
HOW TO ESCAPE SURVIVAL (First Shifts)
Stop consuming poison (food, media, gossip, outrage).
Get into nature daily — even 10 mins barefoot.
Move your body. Breathe. Break the trauma loop.
Cancel every subscription that numbs you (TV, Amazon, bullshit).
Journal until clarity appears. It will.
Say “no” to what makes you sick.
Say “thank you” for what brings peace.
Stop telling your sad story on loop. You’re not broken.
Follow the pull — even if it makes no sense.
You don’t have to drop it all and flip your life upside down.
This is a process.
And it takes time.
But every step you take, gives you more and more clarity.
This Is Not Privilege — This Is Courage.
There will be a moment — maybe even now — when your mind will try to protect you.
It will try to tell you that I was just lucky.
That I had it easier.
That I’m privileged.
That is the ego’s safety mechanism.
And I get it.
I thought the same. I looked at others and wondered:
Why them? Why it’s so hard for me?
I used to think others had it better — a better start, better chances, better timing.
But everything changed the moment I stopped focusing on them —
and I started focusing on myself.
I came from zero.
From nothing.
And from that?
I built a life that felt impossible to most.
Not by following the traditional path.
Not by playing safe.
I risked it all.
I made it.
And then — I dropped it all.
Yes, even the life that looked perfect on paper — I left it.
They said I lost it.
They said I was crazy.
But I know what I felt.
I know what I saw.
I know what I wrote.
And so far?
Following the pull, trusting the my feelings, clearing my field — it has led me here.
And I’ve never felt happier, more peaceful and fulfilled.
I thought it was impossible to feel that way, but I can confirm— this is real.
This is not privilege.
This is courage.
This is what happens when you follow the pull — and you do not stop.
I Had to Lose It All.
To See It All.
I went through tough times.
Just like everyone.
But those times had purpose.
They weren’t punishment.
They were preparation.
To feel it all.
To transmute it.
To write it down — and leave the map.
I had to lose it all.
Including money.
All of it.
To gain full clarity and create from there.
And when I was clear — somehow, the money came back.
The most unexpected refunds. Gifts out of nowhere. Random help from others.
That is the field responding to frequency.
Because there was no way back.
And I refused to live like that ever again.
There was only forward.
But That’s the Way Out.
It started from refusing fully of living the way I lived.
Even though it looked like I had it all.
I was building a reality from nothing.
And it worked — because I refused to accept anything less.
This is not theory.
This is not fiction.
This is lived. This is mapped. This is proven.
One Final Truth.
This reality is made by you.
Not the government.
Not your parents.
Not your boss.
Not your bank account.
You.
If you do not change, nothing will.
And no one is coming to save you.
No one — but you.