This Isn’t Living

(You’re Not Crazy for Wanting Out)

You keep telling yourself this is normal.
That everyone feels this way.
That life is just meant to be hard, rushed, tired.

But something in you knows —
this isn’t it.

The Modern Script

Wake up to an alarm.
Rush through your morning.
Eat while scrolling.
Sit for hours in a job that drains your soul.
Answer emails. Perform. Smile. Produce.
Come home exhausted.
Maybe clean. Maybe collapse.
Doomscroll. Numb out.
Sleep.
Wake up.
Repeat.

Two days off a week — if you're lucky.
One vacation a year — and you're too tired to enjoy it.
Machines to save time...
And yet, you have less time than ever.

They Told You This Was Success

But success was never meant to look like:

• Apologizing for needing rest

• Scheduling bathroom breaks

• Eating lunch in five minutes

• Faking happiness for a paycheck

• Feeling guilty for saying “no”

• Running on caffeine, dopamine, and distraction

This isn’t health.
This isn’t purpose.
This isn’t living.

And deep down —
you already know.

What Was Life Supposed to Be?

Slower.
Softer.
More human.

You were meant to:

• Wake with the sun, not a screen

• Touch the earth with bare feet

• Eat food grown from soil, not labs

• Move with your cycle, not a calendar

• Create, rest, connect — and be nourished

• Be part of a community, not a competition

• Live close to nature — in rhythm, not resistance

We were meant to support each other.
To feel peace — not chase it.
To live through presence, not performance.

But Instead —

We pay for clean water.
Treat real food like luxury.
Work jobs that betray our soul.
Live for the weekend…
...and then spend the weekend trying to escape.

Drinking, scrolling, shopping, gaming —
Not because we’re lazy —
But because we’re starving.

Starving for something real.

It’s Not a Time Problem. It’s a Frequency Problem.

Your life isn’t just “busy.”
It’s scrambled.

You’ve been taught:

• Stillness is laziness

• Rest is weakness

• Saying no is selfish

• Being alone is sad

• Living simply is failure

So you keep going.
Keep bending.
Keep collapsing.
And you blame yourself for being tired.

But maybe your exhaustion is wisdom.
Maybe your body remembers something your mind forgot.

You Don’t Need to Escape Your Life.

You Just Need to Return to It.

Try this tomorrow:

No phone.
No plan.
No performance.

Just you.
Just the sky.
Just the air.

Sit.
Breathe.
Feel your own aliveness again.

If 15 minutes feels too much — start with five.
Start with breath.
Start with noticing that you're still here.

Because you are.
And you're remembering.

Final Note

You're not lazy.
You're not broken.
You're not crazy.

You're waking up inside a world that forgot what life was supposed to feel like.

And now — you get to remember.

Not all at once.
Not perfectly.
But piece by piece.
Moment by moment.

This isn’t about abandoning your life.
It’s about reclaiming it.

And the first step?
Is walking away from the rush.