Why You Can’t Go Back

You're not being dramatic.
You just can't un-know what you remembered.

The past version of you was real.
But it's no longer the signal.

When you start to remember —
Who you are.
Why you're here.
What you’ve been carrying.
What you were never meant to carry —
something shifts.

The people, places, habits that once felt fine
now feel… foreign.
You try to go back —
but it’s like trying to wear clothes that don’t fit anymore.
They itch. They pull. They’re not wrong —
they’re just not you anymore.

You might grieve it.
The old rhythm. The simplicity.
Even the numbness.

But this isn’t regression.
It’s release.

You’re not going back because you outgrew that version of life.
Not because it was all wrong —
but because it was too small for what you now know.

So if everything feels strange right now,
if “normal life” feels like a costume,
if you're mourning what used to make sense —
you’re not broken.
You’re just remembering.
And remembrance rewires everything.

The ones who stay awake don’t walk backwards.
They build forward —
one clear breath,
one aligned choice,
at a time.